Is Satan hanging around looking for your weak spots? He usually is.
Getting ready to pounce? Probably. It's his strategy.
Satan is sowing seeds of shame and guilt -- often concentrating on sins that are most difficult for you to battle against, especially those you repeat the most.
Thoughts from Max Lucado --
"If he can't seduce you, he'll let you sink in your guilt. Nothing pleases him more than to see you cower in the corner, embarrassed that you are still battling some old habit. He's probably telling you 'God is tired of dealing with this,' or 'Your Father is weary of your petitions for forgiveness. He will shut the door this time. You'll never beat this!'
Maybe you are thinking, 'I must not be His child. I must be an orphan. I can't keep going to the well of grace so many times. I don't deserve to keep asking for forgiveness. He will shut the door this time.'
But now stop and think. Who told you you deserved forgiveness the first time?
When you came to Christ, did He already know all the sins you had committed? Yes.
Did He know the sins you would commit in the future? Yes.
So He saved you, knowing all the sins you would commit, every mistake you would ever make? YES.
Sounds like God has already proven His point. If your sins were too great for His grace, He would never have saved you in the first place!
Your sin does not surprise God. He saw it coming. And sees it coming.
Is there any reason to think that the One who saved you in the first place won't receive you every time?"
Remember - He promised to! And He knows you better than you even know yourself.
"If you confess your sins, He is faithful and just to forgive you your sins, and to cleanse you from all unrighteousness" (1 John 1:9).
The fountain of grace is still full and flowing....